The first post with no name.

I decided that it would be best to start to document my new road in life. It has been a long time since I have worked and now I am a supervisor for a retail chain. I have spent 8 years being a single parent, bringing up my daughter. It has been a challenging 8 years with its ups and downs and many health problems. Now though my daughter is older nearly 8 and her health is much improved, she does not get as many illness so then came the time for me to return to work.

I have been working now for about a month, and loving every minute of it. I am finding though that I am on a mission to prove something all the time. I am nervous and worry about every little thing I just can not ease myself into work and this is getting in the way. My boss has even noticed this and yes you have guessed it this has made things worse for me. She does drop little comments every so often and I know that these are done in good faith and not there to hurt or be little me but it leaves dents every time that she mentions something to me.

Also family life at home feels strained for me, I live with my father and of course my little girl. My daughter is my world and has been used to me be around for so long so this new life is harder for her than me. She has not adjusted very well and it worries me that she is not coping with the separation, I know that when I am gone she forgets and gets on with what she wants to do.

I have a lot to learn at the moment in both family life and in work and I guess that I have to calm down and enjoy what I have been given. I have to learn how to budget for this new way of life and I have to learn how to be more domestic and how to balance the two out.

So this will be my place to vent to cry and just basically keep an account of how life is going. I know that some days things will be happy and some days will be sad.I hope to be able to draw strength from my faith and get through all the bumps that this life may throw at me.